Allergy Testing Mishap: 3 Macarons and a Green Juice

Ow. Ow. Ow. I couldn’t help myself and had three macarons this morning (totally silly because they have so many ingredients that they aren’t ideal for allergy testing) after my usual green juice and lemon water….and my stomach hurts! For the rest of the day I’m going to take a break from sugar and things like this and reintroduce cheese (allergy-testing friendly) because it is one ingredient and easily testable. I want to see if it was the dairy in the macarons that set me off. I am betting however, that it was the refined sugar, because I also feel a little queazy and tired now.


CC Days 11-14: The Cleanse Has Ended, But the Journey Isn’t Over

Good Sunday Evening Everyone,

Right now you’ve probably just finished watching the Grammy Awards and eating luscious amounts of food. I am very delayed in talking about the past 4 days, so I will do my best to summarize in a short manner, and then make my way over to discussing what I’ve learned from the cleanse, what I am including in my daily life moving forward, how I feel, and what I’ve learned.

Over the past three days, here are the highlights from my meals (and before that, a cool pic from my window, notice the icicles and the sunset– what a great combo ; ) ):

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Screen shot 2014-01-26 at 10.45.43 PMI made these little almond “Healthy Fig Newton” balls the other day. They were very mildly sweet as figs naturally are less sweet than dates, but I think they were pretty good and they got good reviews.

Thursday, Day 11: All You Need Is Love:

Here’s the rundown:

  • 1 qt warm lemon water
  • frozen grapes
  • goji berry smoothie (almond milk, goji berries, banana, cinnamon)
  • Brussels sprouts
  • salad with balsamic

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  • boring soup– with kale chips, quinoa, chicken broth, carrots, spices
  • green fruit puree pouch

Friday, Day 12: Conscious Creativity

Inspired by a healthy local juice bar, which I’ve mentioned before, and ecstatic that I finally found my misplaced strainers, I decided to make ginger shots!

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They are sooo yummy. I just put a shot of water with a one inch cube of ginger, and the juice of half a lemon in the Nutribullet and strain it. Instantly feel amazing. At One Lucky Duck they also add cayenne to theirs, but I didn’t have any on hand; luckily they taste so yummy even without so it’s all good! The flavor of ginger is so good and the lemon adds sweetness; it makes me happy because I know ginger is one of the most powerful things you can consume for your health. It aids in digestion, is amazing for your immune system, and is even used as a medicine in many cultures.


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  • 1 qt lemon water
  • My breakfast Friday morning was a green juice before I left for the train at 6am, and then when I arrived in the city I had beet/carrot juice and kale chips as my mid morning snack. I kept my avocado in my bag, and later, at night for dinner took it out and cut it up on my salad at the bar I went to with my friends– because I was quite hungry!


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  • Speaking of One Lucky Duck (the name of this amazing place!) I was reallly feeling lucky the other day at my internship when I drank this. Blueberries, cashew milk, coconut meat, vanilla, cinnamon, bananas. Heavenly!! This one’s called “The Spanking” and it is spanking good. In fact, just made cashew milk today for the first time because I have been so inspired by the way it makes smoothies like this one taste.
  • Roasted Brussels Sprouts (same as last time I posted)–sooo yummy

Mid Afternoon snack:

  • 2 Healthy Fig Newton Almond Balls


  • Arugula salad with chicken, avocado (but they only gave me 1/8 of an avocado so I pulled out that avocado from my bag haha), cucumbers, and lemon/olive oil.
  • Roasted brussels sprouts
  • Not filling at all and made me sad about the cleanse and quite complain-y because I was mesmerized by the delicious hamburgers, nachos, filling foods my friends were eating!
  • The book hit this nail right on the head:

    T.G.IF…or not? We know many of you are ready to go out to eat with friends, have a glass of wine or two, and not think about it anymore! We get it. It’s called “cleanse fatigue” and it’s definitely a normal part of the process. But let us lovingly remind you that you are so close to finishing, so give yourself the gift of seeing it through! 

    Well, yes, I definitely was experiencing “cleanse fatigue” by the end of the night.

Some exercise: Sprinting 9 blocks and 3 avenues to catch a train while carrying my ridiculously heavy bag (hahaha… lame I know… but it felt like a workout!) Side note: That totally reminded me that I have been horrible about exercising lately– I neeeed to step that part of my life up! I miss how amazing it feels to workout all the time, running is an amazing drug!

Yesterday, Day 13, Purification (Optional) Weekend: A Clearing in the Forest

Yesterday I started out doing Purification ( no protein, just fresh fruit and vegetable juices) but then, by 4pm felt so horribly tired and cranky and hungry that I went for a regular cleanse-friendly day with protein from chicken and nuts. Purification weekend is tricky when you don’t actually have time to just be sitting around all day doing nothing but watching movies and resting like the book asks.  For a busy college student like myself, who doesn’t have time to waste two weekends in a row like that, it becomes less of a relaxing vacation and more of an absolutely miserable experience for me. I’m just glad that I turned to cleanse-friendly foods instead of junk as a result of my emotions. After I ate some protein I felt a million times better instantly. That frown turned upside down!

Anyway, the book started to come to a close with some very important messages.

Conscious Focus: Living Your Best Life:

The average American sets some version of an intention, a resolution, or a goal at least one and a half times per year. And we all know how well those typically hold, right? The goal to lose weight, to quit smoking, to eat better, to exercise, to find a more fulfilling job…they don’t stick because they often don’t take into account the greater meaning of a person’s life. They’re not attached to a larger purpose.

This is understandable. ….Look how far you’ve come in just a couple weeks. What you’ve given yourself is an opportunity. you’ve come into a clearing, a rise in the landscape of your life. this is a moment of clarity and perspective that not many people experience. 

You’ve given yourself a gift. It can be a small one– a glimpse, a spark, a 2-week vacation you look back on and draw some inspiration from– or it can be something much, much more. Now is the time to attach meaning to what you’ve accomplished, to anchor it to a purpose. 

I feel really good. I feel really happy that I have worked so hard to accomplish something. Even though I was so done with the process yesterday, and so frustrated, so ready to throw in the towel, I realized it was less about the food and more about the power. I actually felt like a prisoner to the program; I wanted to be able to make my own decisions and choose the foods that I wanted. It was a realization for me that this process has been more of a reflection on my personality and who I am than on what I eat. Being clear of my go-to foods has opened up a mental clarity that has allowed me to see parts of my personality that are incredibly impatient and thoughts of mine that are fleeting by nature but constant in that they always come up. I found myself drinking green juice in the local organic juice shop, The Stand, unfocused, impatient, ready to run away. Run away from whom? Run away to where? Run away from what? What is it that I feel I can’t stay grounded in?

I know it sounds harsh, but I came to the realization that it is not the people I surround myself with that I lose confidence in for the most part. It is me. I lose confidence in myself so easily, and I run away from those thoughts by alternate means. I don’t love myself enough, not nearly as much as I should, and that is reflected in my relationships too. I need to believe in myself more. Not just in what I can do, or what I can accomplish, but in who I am and in who I am supposed to be. Something that has struck me in the Facebook group for the Conscious Cleanse is how incredibly positive the health coaches are. It makes me really hopeful, because they are so understanding and encouraging. When anyone slips up they don’t make them feel worse about themselves than they already feel. They boost their confidence by being positive. I realized that I’m not used to that. I’m used to being criticized by the people who love me, and in turn criticizing myself that much more. It’s exhausting feeling like I constantly have to be perfect, when perfect doesn’t exist. I think that’s been really bringing me down. All of the ideals in my head, and all of the ideals people who surround me have for me. It’s not realistic. I noticed that when fellow cleansers reached out on the Facebook group, they bear a lot of worry in their posts. Worry about what the response to their mess-up will be. Fear in admitting they ate a piece of cheese or had a beer with dinner during the cleanse. Immediately after, a coach or Jules or Jo will write something positive, saying things like “What you did well today? Don’t let the negatives ruin all of the good you’ve accomplished!” or “You can still jump back into the cleanse tomorrow!”. Instead of “Yeah, you really messed that up, what were you thinking?” or “You never stick to anything” or “I knew you would “. Those kinds of statements only encourage people to have less faith in themselves and make them discouraged and not want to keep moving toward a goal. Seeing the positivity of the cleansers has made me look at myself in a more positive light. When I messed up with food-pairing rules in the cleanse, I focused instead on trying harder for the next meal, and those simple positive thoughts made me feel like a happier person.

Instead of constantly feeling down because you can’t be perfect 100% of the time, with cleansing or with life in general, focus on how far you’ve come, and how wonderful the constant pursuit of positivity is. Focus on believing in yourself so much that you feel closer to perfection than further from it. That, if nothing else, is something I have fully appreciated and learned from this cleanse.


  • Lemon Water
  • Green juice (kale, spinach, lemon, coconut oil, apple)


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Green Juice: The Nasty (all greens, celery, garlic, cayenne, lemon, apple, ginger)

Mid afternoon:

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  • Protein: 4oz chicken,
  • Almond butter with apples
  • 2 figs
  • brussels sprouts
  • lemon water before bed

TODAY, DAY 14: You’ve Done it!

Throughout the cleanse, I am proud to say, I didn’t eat one non-cleanse-worthy item, at all, until TODAY. And, surprisingly, I am totally okay with that. Today all I had was a large salad and lemon water, until 5pm, because I woke up late and went grocery shopping. When I got home, armed with my rewards, I was so tempted, and felt very curious. I told myself that if I still wanted the junk food I bought after my large salad, that I could test the waters and start my transition-out period early, guilt free. And I mean guilt free, I deserve it, I made it to the end, I worked hard for 19 days, and I was ready.

So that’s just what I did. I sauteed mushrooms in garlic and olive oil with sea salt and black pepper:

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Then I cut up some beets, avocado, and roasted some brussels sprouts. I made a big salad with all of the ingredients, and devoured it, I was so hungry and it tasted so satisfying and delicious from start to finish.

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Afterwards, as I’ve noticed throughout the cleanse, I didn’t just feel “full”, I felt nourished, and really great. My body felt happy. I decided that I would wait a bit, and see if I wanted the junk food still. At 6pm, hungry again, I went for a 1 inch piece of brie cheese…and then grabbed hold of those devious chocolate covered potato chips. Oh. My. Goodness. Gravy. The chips were absolute heaven. Salty, chocolatey, rich, mouthwatering delights. I don’t think I’ve ever enjoyed them that much before. Below is a picture of the things in my shopping cart that I haven’t been able to eat for the past 19 days… aka my “healthy” junk food:

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Later, about 2 hours later, I was hungry again, and went for quinoa tortilla chips with goat cheese. Felt fine, but then had those chips with salsa, and didn’t get halfway through until I felt pretty gross. Almost nauseous. My belly felt a little bloated and there was definitely some mild uncomfortable stomach movements. It was also kind of harder to breathe since there was so much food inside of me. I felt like my body was working really hard to digest, which I’ve learned in the cleanse is where most of the body’s energy goes to, and thus it explains why I also felt quite tired after.

Because, I learned, that eating junk foods (no matter how pure and organic they are) really doesn’t make me feel all that great after all. I ate chocolate potato chips and they were heavenly, I devoured them, they were just amazing, but I found myself craving a green juice after.

Closing (for now) Thoughts:

I want to focus on the positives. After writing in my book in the beginning of the cleanse things I have noticed about myself that were problems, here is what I have honestly noticed has changed since eliminating inflammatory foods in my life:

  • Lost 7 pounds
  • Better, more even mood
  • Skin brighter
  • Headaches completely gone
  • No fog
  • More satisfying sleep
  • Small breakouts on cheeks went away
  • No heartburn, heart pain even after my stressful commute to NYC
  • Not achy when I wake up from sleep (I wrote in my book in the beginning of this that I always wake up achy– my collarbones, shoulders)
  • Feet and hands seem to have better circulation
  • Better focus on what people are saying to me
  • Face no longer feels puffy
  • Sensitive skin on chest (which is normally sensitive after I take a hot shower) is gone, skin is smoother
  • More reflective



I have not realized until today fully just how amazing I had felt over this entire process, and it took me ditching the cleanse friendly foods to realize that. I noticed this morning that my eyes are just so bright, and that my skin and hair feel softer.

When I caved and ate chocolate covered potato chips I felt AMAZING because I love chocolate and it was the greatest reward ever. Salty, sweet, rich. But three hours later when I caved and ate goat cheese and quinoa chips with salsa I felt pretty gross after. I think that shows me that moderation is a tricky word, but a necessary objective. Take it easy, take it slow. Introduce junk in small amounts, and don’t overdo it or it’s no fun.

I want to take more notice of the bad foods I’m eating, and make sure that I am not eating them regularly. I want to continue incorporating my favorite foods that I’ve really enjoyed on my plate throughout this 19 day process.

Here’s a list of things moving forward, foods, and habits, that I want to continue:

  • Warm lemon water (just maybe not an entire quart– we all know how much I complain about that!)
  • Green smoothies– I want to become more creative with them and try different herbs, and buy some cayenne!
  • Ginger shots
  • Reflecting on my day, my emotions, my feelings, my failures, my successes
  • Loving myself more
  • Nourishing my body with a variety of plants, not just grabbing something quick to instantly satisfy me
  • Beets, brussels sprouts, avocados, coconut oil
  • Make nut milk every week– such a fun process, cheaper than dairy milk, and much better for you
  • Water, water, water
  • Adequate sleep (this is something I didn’t do over the cleanse, but I need to focus on moving forward)
  • Seriously limiting refined sugar (yes, even chocolate). I’ve really noticed how it affects my mood and messes with my blood sugar levels making me tired instantly
  • Adopt an 80/20 principle. Focus on the greens, veggies, cleanse-friendly foods. Add in special junk foods that I like, when I want a treat, and treat it as a treat. 
  • Love myself and others
  • MAKE TIME for exercise!

Stay tuned for a post about Allergy Testing and the re-introduction of foods. Last but not least, a huge thank you goes out to Katie, Marisa, Jo, and Jules, and all of the health coaches and fellow cleansers; the amazing inspirations behind this cleanse. It has been a life-changing experience, and I’m excited to incorporate the many physical and spiritual lessons I’ve learned from the process in my own life. Hey, I know it’s crazy for me to think, but the competitor in me wants to say that I may even do this whole thing again sometime!  : )

Lots of love, sweet dreams to all,

Bon appetit et bonne sante,


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CC: Day 8, Day 9, and Day 10 (Today): Perseverance is Priceless

Good Snowy Evening Friends,

I’m catching up on three days of no blogging, thus I will break down each day in sections, and hopefully from this point forward I can really focus on each day better. Alors, first I’ll start with a brief rundown of….

Monday, Refresh and Renew, Day 8.

I woke up feeling so incredibly excited that I could finally have protein that I danced as I cut a lemon in half in the kitchen. I was smiling at my usual morning hurdle–that lemon water– because I knew that soon, very soon, I would get to eat an almond, or chia seeds, or chicken. Starving the two days before really made me appreciate that. And as a result of both waking up incredibly late, and not having eaten much the day before, the rest of the day I didn’t eat much either.

My ‘breakfast’ smoothie was quite filling and then I raced out to the bookstore and rehearsal for glee club, then afterwards I prepped some food for the week:


I made chicken breasts, soaked almonds for almond milk, prepped a soup, cut up carrots, and made a huge bag of quinoa.

I’m a little fuzzy on what precisely I ate and when Monday, as I didn’t write it down, so hopefully I get it all:


  • 1 qt warm lemon water
  • banana smoothie: 1 banana, 1 tbs almond butter, almond milk, chia seeds, flax seeds (it was so filling though I couldn’t finish it all– only drank half!)


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  • Two Moms in the Raw Pesto Sea Crackers with 1 avocado sprinkled w sea salt and freshly ground black pepper (this tasted like a drug, so DELICIOUS, satisfying and savory)


  • frozen grapes


  • 4oz chicken
  • two date rolls (unsweetened coconut, dates)

Tuesday, (yesterday) Day 9: Conscious Moxie

…And Day 2 of my internship. I woke up at 5am, showered, got changed, and headed to the station with my friend who was just starting her first day in NYC at her internship. So grateful to have a ride to the train and a fellow internee there.

I absolutely love my internship, I know– crazy even though it was only Day 2– but my team is just so genuinely nice and helpful, I can tell already it’s going to be a fun semester. All of which made the incredibly treacherous voyage in the snowy, slippery streets of Manhattan worth it.

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I also discovered the most delicious raw, organic, fresh juice bar in our building and I now have so many more ideas for delicious smoothies and drinks as a result. Since it’s just simple ingredients I basically know all the recipes! : ) Now, that, is a cook’s dream!

Yesterday I went with their Banana Nut smoothie, and after seeing the price know it’s just a treat for every once in a while, but man alive it was heavenly! The girl behind me suggested it and said it was quite filling and delicious. The smoothie was made with cashew milk, banana, cinnamon, and vanilla. They must have frozen their bananas because it was a nice cold temperature. Now I want to make cashew milk and make my own! I also noticed the girl behind me got the same thing and a ginger shot. “Why didn’t I think of that?” I thought. It looked delicious and of course is a great boost to your day because of the nutrients! They top the ginger shot off with cayenne pepper and lemon juice. YUM.  I can totally grind up some fresh ginger in my Nutribullet and have that as an extra shot of nutrition every morning if I want.  I currently don’t have any cayenne on hand, but I have ginger and lemon, so stay tuned for that 🙂

Finally, looking back at the challenge of the day, “Conscious Moxie”, we were supposed to dress ourselves up and focus on self-care and pampering ourselves. Unless you count taking a shower and getting dolled-up before my internship, though I did not really pamper myself by getting a massage or painting my nails, but I did pamper myself by going to bed much earlier than normal last night, and the extra amount of sleep felt great! This was mainly due to me not looking at my book at all the past two days, because I was just so distracted by work and school preparation.

Without further ado, here’s a rundown of what I ate yesterday:


  • 1 quart lemon water (not warm, I was racing out the door and loaded it in my water bottle)
  • 1 banana (I was really bad and didn’t have as much time as I thought in the morning and as a result didn’t get to eat breakfast)
  • Stopped at Whole Foods and grabbed a couple pouches of puree (Ella’s Kitchen) (but didn’t eat them…)
  • When I got to work I munched on almonds and leftover Two Moms in the Raw Crackers


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  • Banana Nut Smoothie (banana, cashew milk, vanilla, cinnamon)
  • Roasted Brussels Sprouts (brussels sprouts, sea salt, black pepper, olive oil)


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  • 4oz. Chicken with olive tapenade (marinated olives with lemon juice pulverized), french mixed greens, balsamic vinegar, olive oil (it was way too salty, not gonna put olives directly on top of chicken like that again!)
  • frozen grapes
  • goji berries
  • warm lemon water before bed (not a lot though, should’ve had more)
  • Bed around 8pm, woke up at 11pm, went back to sleep until 8am this morning.

Wednesday (Today) Day 10: Perseverance is Priceless

Well, the book caught me spot on with this…..

It’s Day 10, which is almost Day 14, right? We notice as we round the bend in Week 2, the drop-out rate skyrockets. Why is that? What is in the mind that says, ‘Eh, I did pretty good’ or ‘I feel awesome now, so I must be good to go’. Do you recognize something about yourself in either of those statements? [YES, both] Do you feel as though you’ve been plugging along, barely surviving the process? [Yea…] If this is you stop right now!!!

Guilty as charged. I feel very clean [ by that I mean my stomach is rarely in pain, head is clear, skin seems more vibrant, hair seems thicker, mood is more even] but I am tired, and am ready to go for that chocolate cake now thank you. Or even a glass of wine. But I won’t. I’ve gone this far, and it’s not far enough. I need to understand why I crave those things and how I can manage to eat like this after the cleanse and not overdo the things that I love, like chocolate and cheese.

I love this quote by Einstein, which they highlight in the book:

“It’s not that I’m so smart; it’s just that I stay with problems longer”– Albert Einstein

I’m really quite positive no matter how long I worked with say, math, I would never be as smart as Einstein, but I like what he’s saying there, because it’s thought-evoking; it’s encouraging and inspiring. What good can we do if we keep going, what amazing challenges could we have overcome if we had just spent more time on it and didn’t give up so easily?

I have heard fellow cleansers discuss how they kept up the routine for 6 months after the program ended, because they wanted to fully see the benefits. The Conscious Cleanse is unique in this way, because unlike other cleanses or detoxes, that would actually be totally doable and nutritious and totally manageable (minus those rigid Purification weekends). Because The Conscious Cleanse allows you to have protein, healthy fats, nuts, seeds, vegetables, fruits, galore, it really is just a fabulously healthy lifestyle. I can totally see myself adopting this for longer.  I’d like it to be more moderate of course, because I love chocolate and want to be able to enjoy a glass of wine with my friends, but I also don’t want the majority of what I eat be food I constantly crave.

Some days, especially during those blasted winter holidays, I eat mainly chocolate and cheese! I know that’s not healthy, not matter how pure and organic it may be. This cleanse has taught me already how important green veggies are for overall health, and how destructive sugar is for my mood. Even when I am starved on the cleanse, I am not irritable anymore. I can last. I feel in control. I’m not dealing with blood sugar ups and downs. But I am still tired. Physically exhausted. And I wonder if that has to do with me still not eating correctly, or sleeping enough, or having a good enough schedule. Either way, I need to, moving forward, pay more attention to the book and actually focus on the daily guidelines. And more importantly, move forward conscientiously.

Jo and Jules have so many good points.

For example, today’s Conscious Focus: Quieting Your Mind.

“Thinking too much” leads to all sorts of trouble– particularly stress and anxiety. We dwell on yesterday’s interactions at the cost of moving forward. We stress about a future that’s not yet here. ….It literally is exhausting our bodies….. Focus on honing your ability to respond to stress. Practice techniques for managing its impact, and work on making it a motivational tool as opposed to one that inhibits you….

..One of the best ways to manage stress is to learn to quiet your mind. This could be through yoga, meditation, tai chi, walking or running, listening to the birds, sitting quietly, or any other physical activity that allows the mind to let go. 

As the ancient proverb says, “The silence between the notes makes the music”.

I have not worked out in a while, and I always feel amazing when I do, so I think I will do my Yoga video before bed. But it’s important I notice that it’s not just tonight when I need to relax and destress. It’s most nights, and thus, I should really incorporate this into my routine regularly. I’ll sleep better, that’s for sure, and I think I will be more organized as well.

Here’s a rundown of my day:


  • 1/2 quart lemon water– was racing again to head to the city and catch a train, so it wasn’t warm. I made up for lost water later in the day though.
  • ooopppps….. didn’t eat until much later— lunch….


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Met up with my lovely sister after arriving in NYC for some non-coffee at a really cool coffee place. She might be mid-yawn here, or is trying to be flirty, I can’t tell…

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  • Green juice by Eli’s ZBar NYC: Kale, chard, romaine, apples, maple syrup
  • 4oz chicken and hummus, cucumbers (Forgot about food pairing– technically since chick peas/garbanzo beans are vegetable protein I should’ve just had hummus with cucumbers, not with chicken)
  • roasted cauliflower (with olive oil, sea salt, black pepper, onions, currants)…. again, I really screwed up here with food pairing b/c of the currants.
  • water water water


  • Beet juice: pears, beets, ginger, lemon juice (on my way back from the city I drank some Beet juice and it was divine)


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  • Goji Berry Smoothie (1 cup almond milk, 1/2 cup goji berries, 1 banana, 5 frozen grapes)


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  • French greens with 4 oz herbed chicken, avocado, kalamata olives, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, snow pea shoots.

Stay tuned for tomorrow, and hopefully I will get a better schedule going.

The sweetest and greenest of dreams and best wishes,

Bon appétit et bonne santé,


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Purification Day 2: Cleansing from the Outside In

Good Evening lovely people of the world!

I had so many internal battles with myself today. Starting with my dream last night, in which I ate three pieces of cheese, and even in the dream realized how bad that was. Woke up in relief to find that it was just a dream. Who dreams about cheese as the enemy? So messed up.

Today is Day 2 of Purification, where we are supposed to clean our houses, organize, and get rid of the extra stuff we don’t need basically. There are great homemade recipes for non-toxic cleaners and things like that. But hey, I’m a college kid, and my house is pretty clean right now, and I just didn’t have any energy to think about anything else but the challenge of not eating protein today. I walked into today like it was no big deal, as yesterday was pretty much okay. I was wrong. Today was pretty hard. I woke up around 9am and after drinking my quart of warm lemon water and green smoothie became really discouraged at the realization that I would not be able to have anything but fruits and vegetables to look forward to and ‘sustain’ me. I didn’t want to just sit around the house all day either though, so, possibly stupidly of me, I decided to go to the bar with my friends at 3:30pm to watch the Patriots game. Being around pizza and wings, nachos, cheesy things galore really was like torture, more-so than any other day I’ve experienced before because I had nothing to fill that void. Everything I’ve eaten today only made me more hungry and just seemed to instantly dissolve in my stomach. I realize I sound ridiculous to a certain degree, because it’s only a day and I am lucky to know I will have food tomorrow, but I just have to give you that perspective. The waitress at first, when I told her I have such a specific request was fine, but then when I told her I can’t have tomatoes or oranges either she looked at me like I was crazy. I said “I’m on a cleanse” and she said with a scrunched nose “Why? You’re so skinny?” That was nice to hear hahaaha but I told her it was for allergy testing and I have to do it because I got asked to blog about it. (Those aren’t the only reasons, of course, my intention is much bigger than that, but to make her understand that’s what I said). She said “Oh, well if you’re blogging about it then I guess it’s okay, it’s what you have to do”. Anyways, we stayed for the entire game, I ate my special requested plates, as countless plates of delicious, sustaining food was served around me, amazing scents wafting through the air, and I made it out alive– scotch free– but I never want to do that again!

I came back home after my “meals” which you’ll see below, and slept for 2 hours. Then, because the book says we can transition out of Purification, we can have 2 to 4 ounces of protein, I had a slice of turkey, then a date roll and an entire avocado. I neeeeeeded it. I’m currently drinking dandelion root tea and I have a chicken breast in the oven because if I’m going to last the rest of the night I’ll really have to have that.

Today I’m going to break down my meals in a different way, because they don’t deserve the titles “Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner”, it’ll just make me sad to see those titles. And I’ve never wanted a piece of chicken or an almond or a seed or an avocado more in my life. Ever. Like please dear harvest god give me some sustenance. (Do note though, I am not miserable in a moody way today– although I know that sounds hard to believe– my emotions are pretty steady, I am just starved and being a baby). The only thing about today was I felt a little cramped up after the mangos and apples, but it went away shortly after. I didn’t have any headaches, or any other symptoms other than my stomach hurting from being so hungry. I think this is an awesome sign that my body is free of lots of toxins, but I’m sure my body is saying “Okay lady, we’re clear, you’re good; you don’t have any toxins, now give us something other than veggies already!”

Today’s Menu

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  • 1 quart warm lemon water
  • 1/2 green juice smoothie (couldn’t finish it all because I didn’t want it) (kale, lemon juice, cucumber, apple)


  • 1 date roll (aka two dates smushed and rolled in unsweetened coconut)


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  • French greens with steamed brussels sprouts, snow pea shoots, fresh garlic, 1 tbs olive oil, carrots on the side. (Immediately starved right after)
  • green frozen grapes– maybe 12, still so hungry
  • water, water, water

In the car to the bar:

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  • 1 Ella’s Kitchen peach, apple, banana, lemon juice puree

At the bar:

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  • big spinach salad with olive oil on the side, lemon squeezes, onion, carrrot, green apple slices (Notice the wings in the background…kill me now)

Later on…..

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  • Mango and apple cut up (now notice the pizza… see it… just over the crest of my fruit….. )
  • Ella’s Kitchen Green puree (kiwi, banana, green apple, pear, lemon juice)
  • 5 glasses of ice water with lemon throughout

At home:

  • date roll
  • turkey slice
  • cauliflower mash– aka 1/2 cauliflower head [I wanted more but now I am out of cauliflower] steamed, blasted in Nutribullet with roasted garlic and a pinch of olive oil, sea salt, black pepper— quiteeeee delicious.

Later, after my nap:

  • 1 avocado

Later, aka while typing this….

  • 1/2 chicken breast (3oz) AND OMG IT TASTED LIKE HEAVEN!!!!!!!

SOOOO Excited for tomorrow to feel amazing and eat real food. I love sustenance. Don’t pity me, obviously I pity myself enough for the both of us ; ). Goodness gracious… this is what it’s like to be a foodie without food.

I already hear the music pumping downstairs, and people arriving, time to take a shower finally and be a good host. Running on low fuel, but you only college once right? Tomorrow’s a holiday, I’ll sleep in.



(Yest.) CC Day 6: Purification Weekend Begins!

Good Morning! 🙂

Purification weekend officially began yesterday and as a result I took advantage of it and slept quite a long time last night. The book told us yesterday to Create Your Own Wellness Retreat, where we should pamper ourselves, rest our mind and body.

The point of Purification is to notice changes in our body, sleep, relax, give our systems a rest. Thus, because our digestive system uses so much energy just to break down food in the body, during Purification, we drink lots of water and eat only fruits and vegetables.

Suggestions also included watching a good movie, journaling, laughing, or lying on the couch. Kind of cool being told to do nothing– and while all morning I was contemplating going out and seeing more friends, by 8pm I was just so exhausted I went right to bed. I set my alarm for 3 hours to see if I’d have energy then to head out, but went back to sleep and woke up at 9am this morning.

I didn’t get nearly enough sleep the night before last and as a result yesterday morning I was pretty dehydrated and tired. It was nearly-falling- asleep-on-the-refrigerator-door, tired. My internship in the city on Friday was amazingly awesome but waking up at 5am and not getting back until 8pm, then going out pretty soon after and not going to bed until 4am will definitely make you exhausted and do that to you. (Sound familiar, fellow college kids?) (And no alcohol when I went out mind you– I pumped iced water w/ lime at the bar).

I also want to let you in on how I’ve been feeling. I feel great! I have lots of energy, have lost 3 more pounds, and I’ve noticed my leg muscles feel stronger for some reason. I just feel alive and much more clear-minded, focused. There’s more of a fluidity in my movements and a calmness overall, I really feel like I’m not jumping around all the time thinking of one thing to the next. I have noticed my hair is much thicker, I’m not quite sure if this is normal as it’s only Day 11 technically of me adding all of these nutrients to my days, but it’s pretty cool! My skin has cleared up from a couple days ago. I still have low energy in the afternoons especially, but I’m willing to bet that has to do with sleep.

Here’s what we can’t eat on Purification (which includes the same things we can’t eat on CC):

  • avocados (considered a healthy fat)
  • nuts, nut milks
  • animal protein, vegetable protein

Other guidelines during Purification:

  • only 2 tbs of oil per day
  • rest rest rest!
  • keep vegetable to fruit ratio at 3:1
  • eat whenever you’re hungry, feel free to graze

Anyways, here’s a rundown of my day yesterday:


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  • 1 quart warm lemon water
  • 1/2 date roll (approx 2 dates) covered in unsweetened coconut while I prepped my smoothie
  • three slices of cucumber (with a pinch of olive oil, sea salt, black pepper, crushed red pepper)
  • Green smoothie: kale, 1/2 cucumber, lemon juice, 2 apples, water (the ratio is off here, but I didn’t read over that part until later at night)

Snack (about 2 hours later)

  • two carrot sticks
  • water
  • 5 green frozen grapes
  • 1 lightly steamed beet


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  • water
  • green smoothie (kale, cucumber, one apple, lemon juice, water)


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  • four olives
  • lightly steamed cauliflower, kale, brussels sprouts with sea salt, black pepper, herbs, and some roasted garlic with 1/2 tsp of olive oil

After Dinner

  • handful frozen grapes
  • warm lemon water before bed (at 8pm)

Stay tuned for tonight’s post. And have a wonderful lazy Sunday everyone 🙂 !!

xoxox bon appétit et bonne santé,